Thursday, May 19, 2005
i think i've been day-dreaming too much. i need to focus. on everything that is
important. i wonder what's wrong with me. the uneasy feeling is back again. sighh. and i've been thinking what will happen to my friends when i have to go back to canada for good. i also wondered how will i react when they come and visit me. hmm. i wonder why i'm thinking about all this.
i'm depressed again. and shilbe's letter today nearly made me cry. seriously. i don't know why. if i read it now i'll cry. but i couldn't at the time when i first read the letter. cause i was in school and we were like electing class committee. she was actually consoling me and asking me not to do silly stuff. but i don't know why i feel like crying. oh and shilbe! i can run away from home. your question was where will i stay. i've asked around. and many of my dear friends will welcome me to their home. (: and now my mom is complaining about my lost wallet
again. she has been complaining since tuesday. and the first time she scolded me i nearly cried too. actually tears has already filled my eyes. but being depressed also played a part in making me cry.
sigh. i don't know what to blog already. a lot of stuff cannot be typed down. and some cannot be put down in words. i can only feel it. maybe i should call someone and pour everything out. maybe i shall disturb claaar again. sighh.
oh well. no point thinking so much about it.
au revoir![9 more days to Canada]
i really want to cry. i can't hold my tears back anymore..
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
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